life like an episode of the hills.
Right now my life is in pieces. Gotta piece them up one by one. God help me.
back to where i started.
I haven’t been updating here, at all. I could try to come up with so many excuses but I’ll be honest, I was plain lazy.
So naturally, the next time that I felt like updating this miserable blog of mine is when I’m back here in Singapore! Somehow it hasn’t really kicked in yet that the end of my adventures start here. Routines will start all over again, so will house chores and teaching tuition and stuffs like that.
How can i sum up my USA adventure in just a short post? I could never do that. And besides, there’s just too much to talk about that it would be easier to just not talk about it! All I can say is that, USA has made me grow and has me see the world in so many ways. Traveling can be such a bitch sometimes but I think it’s all worth it. This experience is worth it and I will never regret spending the summer of 2010 away from home.
So many things have happened that I wish time would slow down a little for me to sort it out. It’s like a whirlwind. Especially my heart. Right now it wants to break free for a little but a part of me wants to stay on. You’ve changed so much that I couldn’t help notice it. But another part of me wants to stand on my own first. I will decide one day. For sure.
Yellowstone!!
Hey everyone!
Finally blogging from here. Yellowstone has been so so so amazing. The view is just so so spectacular! I can’t believe that I am actually in one of those postcard moments here. I am just so in love with the views. In fact, I know that one of the things that I will miss when I leave here is the amazing view! 
We live in dorms here and well, the set up in the room is very basic… though we have a small walk in wardrobe (which is honestly just nothing). Food is basically vegetables for me since I won’t be able to eat the meat here. But I guess it’s a healthy lifestyle! We go for loads of hikes here and I’ve seen so many things already! I’ve seen loads of geysers go off as well wildlife such as bison, wolves, elks etc I’ve also experience snow here!! It is amazing BUT damn cold!
People here are pretty okay. There are so many kinds of people to see here; the weird ones, the flirts, the nice ones etc Well I wouldn’t say that everyone is genuine but it has become such a habit for people to pass by and say “Hello, how you doing?” I think it gets sort of repetitive and well sincerity just gets lost at times cos some people tend to not be as sincere as you think they are.
On a side note, I miss my family and Ari a lot! I am having fun here but at the same time I miss them so much!
end of one, start of another…. ADVENTURE!! (not really yet)
I kinda realise that I do blog quite “formally” and well I kinda scraped what I wrote in the past ummm 20 mins? I’d like to try changing my blogging style. I don’t want to bore people when I start blogging about my USA trip!!
I just got back from teaching tuitionS just now – and I’m kinda feeling beat. I still have TORRES video lectures to go through, at least 3 of them before I can start re-revising for this module! His module, by far has been a killer this semester. And for the record, I have been such an owl this semester…. staying up almost everyday, well sometimes not to study. Heeee. But yes, as I was saying, never trust a Torres anymore. Especially if he likes to wear his shirt unbuttoned.
It’s 9 more days till I fly off and right now I’m in the comfort of my hall with half of my roomie’s stuff gone (cos she just packed all her stuffs) and me eating raisins plus the laptop in front of me plus HIMYM loading plus the lecture notes under the raisins…. Well, my point is, I might actually miss this room that I’m in! I can’t believe it! All the complaining and whining about missing home and family… and I still might miss this room of mine.
I guess Uni life is really different with hall aye? Especially when your whole clique of friends (all 5 of us – Fizah, Leroy, Nas, WH and myself!) is staying in the same hall as well! Pasta nights, visiting each other’s room, Monopoly Deal, Scrabble, Pizza on the rooftop, rushing past year papers together…. and so much more! We go through so much more together than we have had in the past and well I must say that I am gonna miss all this cos next sem, this might not happen again. 
I don’t even know if I’m gonna get a place in hall yet. But well, it was really really really awesome while the fun lasted. But I’m really glad that all 5 of us are in hall, it makes us bond much much more than we already have before. We’re like family! <3333
But yes, Hall life is awesome no doubt. I can’t imagine the amount of activities I’ve done this sem! I’m still in SBS Dinner and Dance Club but besides that I’ve been trying new things! Such as cat feeding for the school cats. I am gonna miss seeing all those pretty and adorable faces! Cuddles, Pharaoh, Cheryl, Cybelle, Leo, Nutty, Curry – all 7 of them! Each one with their own different personalities. I am truly gonna miss them. And well, I am proud to say that I shall return again next year to feed them! Even if I won’t get a hall. Apart from cat feeding, I’ve done more floorball as well! It was hell fun though I need more work on my skills (if i had any to begin with! :S)
I think this past academic year has been super awesome. I’ve gone through so much and sharing this experience with my best friend and love makes it even more special. I used to think that it’s gonna be really hard on us but look at us! We’re doing good and we even set out with our own Skating expedition called Skate migrate against cat hate. Picking up longboarding with Ari has been a good thing for him, me and us. Sure, we do have our spats still but we can always look pass all that and move forward together and learn to grow together.
This past year in school has been a WILD ADVENTURE and well, I’m STOKED to begin a new one soon! I’ll be updating my blog often and I’ll number my USA entries. Gotta go back to my studying now….. gotta end this sem with a BOOMZ and make sure i’ve done my best in all my papers to make it extra worth it!
Lotsa love!
Last stretch for the year.
It’s already almost the end to year 2 now, and in around 23 days’ time I will headed off to USA. OMYGAWSH! PANIC ATTACK!
Time like water.
I haven’t been really coming back to blog so often. Maybe because I don’t really find a need to. Usually my blogging needs kicks in when there are a lot of things troubling me, when I feel very emotional. It’s not that I don’t have any problems these days just that things are fine and even with the challenges that come day by day, they are bearable. I have to say, life is pretty kind to me now. Syukur alhamdulillah! 
My new roommate (well not so new anymore) and I do get along quite well and that’s a relief cos they previous one I had…. we just had no chemistry together. But i must say that I do miss being roomies with Shannon! Cos we’re like sisters of a different race. I haven’t been able to meet her recently cos of the hectic schedules and test. Sadly (and embarrassingly), her hall is almost just in front of mine! I hope Shannon has been doing well.
Recently I had quite a huge transformation = short hair, contacts, bright pink nails etc. Maybe I just needed a fresh change in terms of looks and such. Honestly, that change was much needed! I feel so much funkier, so much lighter, so much free-er with this new haircut. I feel edgy somehow but! at heart i’m still same old same old.
You know, it’s only 1 more month till I’m headed to USA and I can’t believe that I am going to do this. You don’t know how much troubles there was just to settle all the issues pertaining to USA! Perhaps I deserve this BUT I gotta make it more worth it by doing really well for this semester. *sings pressure by paramore*
HAHAHA you know sometimes I wished I was a little bit more different than how I am now but I gotta love myself in my own skin and learn to just enjoy myself as how I am! I may not crack the most awesomest jokes or write the most witty stuffs on earth but I don’t have to be all that to be happy you know? Do you get me? Okay bottomline is… I’m starting to appreciate myself more. New look doesn’t = I hate myself so i change, New look = I am starting to feel comfortable in my own skin so I do something different.
WAWAWEEYAAAA
High school never ends.
Sometimes, I’d like to reminisce back to the old secondary school days.. or the so called “high-school days” where we were all very angsty, vain, flirty young girls. Well, maybe not so flirty? I don’t know. But i guess flirting was alright then when we were younger cos everybody does that right? No strings attached. In the end, all of us are friends and main point was that we move on.
I’m not sure if i flirted a lot with guys (cos I was a N.E.R.D… still am but have upgraded a little HAHA) but I had my angsty moments (quarrels with friends, parents, sissy) and of course.. I was definitely vain! There was always a need to try to look nicer each year but I guess, I still remain classified as a nerd. I can’t help it guys!
Sometimes when my sister tells me about her troubles in schools etc with her friends…. I wonder how I would handle these kinda controversies in school. All i remembered in secondary school was having A LOT OF FUN throughout my 4 years ALBEIT some squabbles here and there with friends. I mean… quarreling is normal right? But.. BULLYING is not so normal for me? I had great friends in school who I still keep in touch with although we might be busy. And till now we laugh still at our squabbles in school but mostly remember all the fun stuffs we had while growing up together!
I wonder will my sissy and friends cherish this secondary school life that they will never ever have again after they graduate? Honestly, I do miss my secondary school life at times. It was youthful and full of adventure and mischief etc etc etc. Sometimes there might be some friends that we lose along the way or just grow apart from each other but I bet you still have others who do stay.
Well, not saying that my JC life or Uni life isn’t any fun, but secondary school life was 4 years of transition, of you growing up into young adults. Sure, you do have some changes in jc BUT not as drastic as in secondary school. Uni THOUGH is another 4 years of transition that I will NEVER FORGET either. Bottomline is, I have such great friends! I HAD THE BEST CLASSMATES EVER IN JC. 06S19 and we’re still darn tight till now! In UNI, I have the greatest group of friends that I love to bits and pieces!!
I mean, what is life without the company around you? Sure, days can go by without friends but I’m sure everyone needs some friends. Hmm… Seriously kids, take a step and look back and think. Do you want to risk ruining your secondary school life and ruin all your friendships?
I don’t think so.
honestly
if you want to, do. don’t think, do. no matter how, i don’t have it. and so it will be just like that. free, and me looking through the glass from inside.
